Most of us are in an intense search.
A search that begins with engaging with the world and with our selves.
The intention of the search is discovery, understanding, learning and knowing our selves better and better. We start that by engaging with something that attracts us.
Behind all that lies our desire to know our selves better. It is an innate but dogged search for an identity, if there is one – whatever way we choose to engage with the world.
Such a search can be fascinating, frustrating, painful and illuminating.
While engaging with the world, our emotions and cognition come into full play.
At times, they hurt. At times, they make us happy. At times, we shriek with fear.
As a result we start developing strong likes, dislikes, hatred, desires, greed that cloak our real desires and heart’s longing; making the path towards fulfillment obscure and misty. As an undesirable consequence we can quickly get disillusioned and angry with our world and angry at our selves.
It might goad us to prove to the world that we exist. Or it might force us to pretend to be something which we are not. Or we might be pushed along the path of vanity, pride, ambition and passion — mired in deep unhappiness.
We fight with the world. We fight with our selves. We fight with others. This fight would not be over till we find a resolution and come to peace within ourselves.
It might come to such a pass that we might even think of secluding ourselves from society or think of leading a cloistered life or think of total renunciation or even welcome death.
But that is not what the search is all about.
Or is it the only path that we have at our disposal?
To be continued…
By Dibyendu De
Author of #PowerofSee